My car radio goes haywire when it’s too hot…or is it when it’s too cold? It just goes haywire randomly, it seems. When I hit a set button for another station, it’ll change that setting to whatever station is playing.
So it did that the other day. It changed a station I didn’t even care about, but for some reason it really pissed me off. I was trying to remember the call numbers of the station that normally lived at that button, but I couldn’t.
Why was i so mad?? Why was I so determined to reset it to a station I rarely even listen to. Frankly, why did I care given the fact that there are only 2 or 3 stations that I can tolerate, usually opting for silence over radio anyway. And the only reason I even listen to the radio in my car is because neither the CD or tape players work!
Was it just because it was familiar? Is the change of a setting significant enough to knock me off my balance? Well that’s just embarrassing.
I can’t quite explain what it was, but at the moment, I had to get the setting back to where it was. Since I couldn’t remember the station, I started to go down the dial to find it. Quickly, i stumbled on a station i’d never heard of that was playing some indie music that never would be played on a mainstream station. So i set it there.
And I’ve been digging it. And I never would have found it had I not lost that other station. But what the hell? I should know better than to mourn the loss of something so meaningless. I should know by now that letting go can let something better in.
I wonder what else in my life i’m holding onto for no good reason at all!
